Baby Shower Rant...

   My baby shower is this weekend and I cant even say I'm excited. At this point I almost would rather cancel it all together. Most people (where I live) dont have baby showers for their 2nd, 3rd, 4th...etc children, but rather only their first. I wouldnt normally consider doing a before baby shower, ... maybe doing a meet the baby party after she was here, but we need things before she gets here! Ha-ha. Not to mention the idea of blessing only the 1st born babies, and celebrating their life, and life to come is horrible. EVERY baby I ever have will be just as much a blessing as my first born.

   Well, we have had a rather busy life lately, and not everything has gone well. I dont want to complain too much about money, but it can at times be an issue. I'll explain. We moved from our townhome into my parents...then we couldnt get into our house bc paper work hadn't gone through, when we finally got in right off the bat the sump pump went. yay. We had to pay all our bills right off the bat, and get things at the house set up. (internet, tv, etc...) All of which costs money, so thats alot of money needed to be spent all at once.
   On top of that we found out we were having a little girl, and were excited because we had saved all of Kylyns clothes up until her lates size! THEN we found out my great aunt and uncle were cleaning out some stuff (where we stored stuff) and THREW out all of Kylyns baby clothes from Newborn through 12months!! Socks, shoes, onsies, outfits ,burp rags, everything!! WELL over $200 worth of baby stuff thrown away. Some of it having tags still attatched. Yes, I cried. We, therefore, have nothing for our new baby girl, until after shes 12months. We have bought some outfits, hit up some garage sales, we got her bedding, a dble stroller, new breastfeeding pump, ect...but are still lacking in a few things.
   We are doing cloth diapers this time which I'm excited for, BUT as much money as it saves long run, ... you have to buy bulk at once. So to get started costing us close to $200 or more... it just gets to be stressful. I know a baby shower would help relieve some stress as to some of the basic necessities for our daughter. This is largely a reason we would like a baby shower BEFORE the baby is here rather then have a meet the baby party afterwords.


  I'm not excited about the shower (even though we sort of need it) though for a few reasons. One being, NO one is comming. No one was in Church this last Sunday when it was announced so no one will get the info. I created an event since my mom didnt want to, and my sister was going on a youth retreat, on Facebook, and out of all the people I invited 5 people are comming. FIVE! Of those 5 people attending, 1 of them is a host, 2 are actual guests, and the other 2 consist of my husband and I. Slightly depressing.

   All the planning and info is being sent out last minute because my mom has been so busy with the death of my grandfather, and going back and forth helping out my grandma. Sunday my dad was gone (hes the pastor), so  Van announced it, but I dont even know what he said, or what info he had.
   My  mother inlaw cant comming which hurts because she was fairly involved in my pregnancy with my oldest daughter, Kylyn, but seems non existant with this pregnancy. Part of which is that our scheduals just dont match up for us to ever get together. When we do see my inlaws I feel, in my opinion, her focus is on Kylyn the majority of the time. Maybe I'm just over thinking things, but it really does hurt, and at times bothers me greatly.

   My Mom Dad and Brooke (my youngest sister) are suposed to be throwing it, but everyone has been running like crazy people, and have been almost too busy to make any of the arrangements.
   I feel dumb. I wanted BBQ's and salad, and a simple desert...she didnt want to do that. She thought a salad bar...then proceeded to list off 4-5 salads only 1 of them being a salad I would even eat. I understand your feeding others as well as me, but isnt it suposed to be for me and my growing baby?? Maybe I'm wrong. So we scratched that completely and went with a desert bar, which we are trying to plan, but NO one is letting anyone know if they plan on showing up. We have NO clue of the amount of food to get. :(
   I had a few hilarious game ideas... (not the cheesey boring dainty ladies baby shower games...) The fun humorous games people WANT to play. I'm not a big game player myself, but haha these are fun, and I cant wait. (I might have to if we dont have enough people) I had this ideal shower planned in my head, and my mom was in full compliance, but suddenly not so much.
   I didnt want a ladies shower, I wanted a couples shower that resembled more of a friends and family get together where we could all just joke, and enjoy eachothers humor and company....get to know one another, eat some good food, play some awesome games, and then joke about it all at the end. .... I'm scared theres only going to be a few people and its going to be all women and no one is gonna wanna play games, and its gonna just be awkward and boring, and another 'traditional' baby shower. I know I shouldnt complain and should have a thankful heart. Maybe its just the lack of sleep, and the crazy hormones. I dont know.

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36wks

Weeeeellll,   two labor and delivery hospital visits, a pelvic rest sentance, preterm labor, and a bed rest sentance later, I finally made it to 36wks as of July 18th 2010! It was kinda scary there for awhile, but we got things under control, and although I have numorous Braxton Hicks contractions in an hour nearly every hour of every day...My cervix hasnt dialated anymore...that I know of (i'll find out in 13hrs and 15minutes), and nothing else seems to be going wrong. I have passed my last two NST's (Non Stress Test) and baby is growing accordingly. YAY!

I have alot of trouble staying hydrated it seems, so I drink water non stop it seems, which means I'm running to the bathroom non stop as well! When BH contractions get bad I stop and lay down, and drink more water until they subside, then go back to what I was doing. It isnt fun, thats for sure. Kylyn is demanding of my attention, and makes it hard to be on bedrest!

The baby nursery murals weren't going to paint themselves...nor would the antique hat box. So SLOWLY but surely the murals got sketched, then painted, and so did the hat box.  Zack is working on sanding the floor so we can stain it this week. Hopefully before this weekend maybe!! The murals are so cute, and im so excited to see the room all completed!

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Sleep no more....33 weeks 3 days.

Well, I cant sleep. I have...hmmm let me count. 7 pillows, and stole one of Kylyns 2 pillows and no matter what I cant get comfy. My ribs hurt. like the line around where the bottom of my sports bra lands. It doesnt hurt in my back or stomach, just on my sides...like the 2 ribs bellow my boobs on both sides. Mostly on the right side though.  Ugh drives me nuts. I can sleep usually around 2:30-4am and then sleep as long as Kylyn allows. Lately shes been waking up at 5am with Zack when he gets up to get ready for work at 6am. She comes and lays in bed with me, and I turn on the tv and turn it to this super cute channel I cant remember the name of, and she watches and laughs, and eventually I fall asleep and somewhere after then so does she.. We wake up again between 8-10am. Then we just wait for daddy to come home at 3-4-5pm So so fun.

Today after Zack got off of work at 12pm he drove all the way home, picked Kylyn and I up, and drive all way back to Theif River...exactly a block not even from where he works, all for me to get my second steriod shot in my butt. OUCH this one was WAY worse then the first on Monday. After that was all over we went to see the potencial pet. A Norfolk Terrior. This famiyl found him and has taken him to the vet, posted up photos, posters, walked around, stopped at neighbors within almost a miles radious asking in person about the dog....maybe people had seen it around the area for the last 2-3 weeks thinking it was a fox. When they found him they thought he was a fox as well. They have had him for over a month and a half in their home. They started asking around for anyone who wanted him, and we did some reasearch and decided .. well sure why not.

He is a pure bread, but has some---for some reason--undesireable white markings in his coat. He is about 1yrs old or less. Hes great with kids, is trained, house trianed, and just an all around awesome dog. Not to mention he isnt nutered, and is worth around $2,500. Thats a nice free gift to get from complete strangers, who happen to have a daughter that works at hugos, and happen to be dating a guy that works with Zack. . .

After going and getting some of the few things we needed...like TOILET PAPER!!! We headed home, I painted Kylyns stool, and then Zack and I sanded and primed the entire crib except one peice. Tomorrow I'm hoping to finish priming, and can start painting it all. It was all in all a good day. I'm tired though, peeing non stop, and its 2:30am. . . .hmm. You would think I would eventually just pass out from exhaustion!!

I think Ill try sleep some, but we'll see what the night brings!! Goodnight.

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33 Weeks 1 day - bedrest for a reason?...or no reason?...hmm

Well, after waking up WAY too early after getting very little sleep, getting in the car without eating a thing, and getting to my regular doctors appointment on time at 8am. I figured the day could only get better from here...That was totally wrong. An appointment in which I was to get a quick internal ultrasound to check cervical length, abdominal ultrasound to check babys position, my weight charted, along with my blood preasure,and then to just have my tummy measured quick...maybe a few minute conversatoin...it should have totalled 45-60min. Instead, everything went according to plan until I got to my doctor appointment. Everything looked wonderful, and she decided just for the fun of it to pop me on the monitor to see if I was having contractions or anything...my cervix was dialated to a 1cm but hasnt changed in 2weeks. I expected it might happen, but new it would be a on and off thing. I'm suposed to be on the machine for 20min. Well I was on for a total of about 6-10min. My doctor came in, and sent me right over to L&D. She said I was contracting every 3min. She put me on bed rest, gave me a painful steriod shot in my right butt cheek, pumped 2000mL of IV fluids in me, took a cathitor urin sample, put me on the monitor at the hospital, and then took some blood test.

I was there an hour with not one contraction, but I peed 4-5times. . . We missed our appointment to see the potencial new pet. My mom was slightly upset because this is the 2nd time I have gone into the clinic leaving Kylyn with her, and ended up being in L&D for hours causing her day to be completely rearranged. Finally after over 2 hours of laying in bed watching TV, peeing every 5-10min, and haveing zero contractions....I asked my nurse if I could go home. She called my doctor who said I could but had to be on bedrest. ... I basically can lay in bed, sleep, lay on my side, watch TV in bed or laying on the cough, go to the bathroom, shower or take a bath, NOT lift anything over 3-5lbs, drive, and walk only when needed. . .

Seriously? I was put on bedrest for no reason. Dumb. Well, I have too much to do, and get done to do nothing. A highschool friend came over and helped Zack and I paint all the doors and door frames, floor boards, and heating registers in our kitchen. I had 2 braxton hicks total. No problem.

I know I am on bedrest, but I KNOW when I'm having labor contractions...real contractions, I know when Im having a braxton hicks contraction, and I know when I'm not having any contractions of any kind...I know when I need to sit down, lay down, eat, pee, or just take a quick breather. IF something was up I would not hesitate to call my doctor. I trust myself, and my body. So since I left the hospital with a sore butt, a bandaid on my arm from my IV, and some hospital slippers, I went to hugos...yes I walked, and I filled a 1gallon jug of water...then carried it. We were in such a rush to get home and get all the things we needed to get done that day, we forgot to buy toilet paper, shampoo & conditionar, baby shampoo for Kylyn and some other items I cant recall. We got home painted, cleaned, and finally at around 11:30pm I made up a nice foot bath. awww it felt so wonderful. that was one exhausting, pointless day, BUT regaurdless I got ALOT done. Nothing happend. :)

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