A Tiny Piece of Heaven: TOO LONG

Wow, my last post was Joslyns 7wk photos?! How awful am I lately at keeping my blog up to date? How much has happened in life since then? Alot. Much too much to list, but I cant try. Riiiigggghhhttt??

OK, so this is gonna be written weird since I'm telling of my life, and how it relates to Joslyn and Kylyn and being a mommy when Joslyn was 8-9weeks old, when at present Joslyn is 6.5 months, and Kylyn is 3. A Little off but that's ok.

Keep in mind this post is past, as in this past fall, not actually in present time.

I admit I was awfully concerned about Joslyns progress as far as movement and capability to do things. My first, Kylyn, was so advanced. Scooting, sitting unsupported, crawling, walking, and talking all before 11months easy. Joslyn? Not so much. She pretty much was perfectly content laying there and staring at anyone who would meet her eye to eye. Didnt squawk much, or squeal. Just lied perfectly still, Turing her head from side to side every so often to follow someones figure passing her by.

I was constantly comparing her to stats based on other August babies born around the same time as her, or comparing her against her sister when she was the same age...no matter what Joslyn always seemed sooo far behind. It drove me crazy to read how my friends babies were scooting on their tummy's, sitting up, crawling etc...when all my baby seemed to do was be content being a lazy lump of human baby flesh watching life, instead of making any effort to join in. It made me almost upset at times...it was so hard to NOT compare. When I did compare I got upset at the results, and at the fact that I just compared my daughters even though I swore I never would. I know Kylyn was 2 weeks over due,and Joslyn came nearly 4 weeks early, and spent time in the NICU, so I had to expect and accept her behing a little behind as normal, but I didnt want to. Kylyn was always so advanced, and entertaining, and so fun. She was nearly everyday doing something new and exciting, but Joslyn didnt coo, sqwak, roll over, do anything! Every once in a while she would smile or make some attempt at interacting, but she was soo different then what I was used to a baby being like! I knew she was normal, and just a different person then Kylyn. How could I have expected them to be exactly the same as far as growth and developement?

Kylyn grew increasingly jealous, with time, of Joslyn. Kylyn with no doubt loves and adores Joslyn, but she doesnt like when people come over and want to check out Joslyn first thats for sure...She about throws a royal fit when I have to stop playing with her, or stop watching her do something to tend to Joslyn. She stomps and whines and fusses when its time to give Joslyn a bath, or lay her down for a nap, or make her a bottle. I wasnt even sure how to deal with the problem. I knew to her it was becoming a competition for my time. Before Joslyn I stayed home everyday all day with Kylyn and we were like best friends. Every waking moment seemed to be spent together in one way or another. This time sharing thing was different and at times hard for both of us. As time has gone on its gotten better, but we still have our moments.

So...this is kinda the run down of Joslyn Kylyn and I and how my life as a mommy was @ 8-9wks post partum.

OH the joys, ups and downs, excitement, and boredum of being a mother.