Birth Story from my point of view.
>> Tuesday, September 14, 2010
I am foolish to be awake right now, but I am. Both the girls are asleep, and I'm wide awake. Why? Not entirely sure, but my mind is wandering. Kylyn is going to be Three in February, and Joslyn is already over a month old. I cant believe how time flys! It seems Kylyn was just born, and now Joslyns here and shes already a month old! I cant believe it..I havnt even written out my birth story really besides a time line of events leading up to Joslyn. I guess its time I did so.
August 2nd I had my regualr appointment with my Dr. and I had a c-section schedualed for the 9th. I knew I would go into labor for some reason before my CS and while my doctor was away on a trip for a family/friends birthday party.
That night I started having contractions or what I thought were just braxton hicks at the time. They came and went but time wise were fairly consistant, and always came in sets of 4-12 at a time. They continued day and night...by the 4th I woke up at night and was concerned that she was not moving as much. I watched it carefully throughout the night, and by morning she was moving more and i figured she was just running out of room to move around in...that night i did kick counts and she was good,so I went to bed. I usually woke up a few times a night to pee or just get comfortable again, and by morning I realized i hadnt felt her move at all since I did my kick counts. Zack had gone to work about 30min before, so this had to be around 6am I decided to wake up for the day, and drank some pop -for sugar, and ate something in hopes to get her moving again. When I didnt feel anything after a while I just called Zack and told him to come home...we needed to go to the doctor because something wasnt right. By the time he got home and we were on our way I had felt her move very sluggishly a few times...I was still concerned, so we proceeded to the doctor. My doctor was of course gone still till the 8th. I was in labor. I wasnt happy, but I was sort of excited? I dont even know how to describe. It felt surreal, like it wasnt actually going to happen because I wasnt ready for it to happen. I was excited to meet my little girl, but I didnt feel like it was gonna happen that day. They prepped me for my cs and I was so tired, and just out of it. I went through the sugury, and after they took her out I was beginning to regain feeling in my stomach, they gave me some medication to keep me numb as long as possible, but it didnt work too well. I went to recovery knoing she was having a few minor breathing issues more likely because of the sugrical delivery rather then a vaginal dilevery. I was told a few times it was nothing to be worried about. When I got into my room finally Zack told me she hadnt gotten better yet. I asked if I could be wheeled in there to see her but they wouldnt let me. That night she only got worse, and they were going to have to bring her to Gf because the Thief River hospital didnt have the equipment Joslyn was requireing. She needed a NICU.
They brought her in and I saw her for a few breif minutes held her hand and touched her, and then she was gone to grand forks. Zack spent the night and went to Gf to visit her in the morning. I wished I could go, but just having surgury less then 24hrs previous, it wasnt going to happen.
Zack left that morning to visit Joslyn and I was jealous and mad I couldnt go. I missed Kylyn, and I was just angry all around that nothing had gone how it was suposed to. I was suposed to be looking down at my precious baby girl in my arms, introducing her to her big sister, bringing her home to her room I worked so hard on...I was suposed to be enjoying my stay in the hospital with my new baby and husband, but instead I was sitting in a bed, alone, staring aimlessly out my hospital window with a cut across my stomach and no baby in my arms to show for it. This wasnt the way things were supposed to go at all. I was scared, sad, upset...not the typical feelings besides maybe scared, that a mom should be feeling in the hospital the day after her baby is born. Even my hospital room made me sad. My hospital room with Joslyn was the same as with Kylyn accept with Joslyn she and I were in totally different towns in totally different hospitals. :(
I was sad and scared I prayed the Lord would heal her, and that she would be back to me or release within the next two days, but when Zack came back from visiting her he didnt have good news. She was worse yet. :( We at this point didnt know how serious of condition she was in because one doctor would sound calm and chipper as could be and say her issues were minor, another would have a more serious demnior and make it sound a bit more serious....by the 7th I was released, and we went home. We had heard earlier that day there was a possibility she would need to be transfered to Fargo. We got home unpacked and repacked for either Fargo or grandforks we didnt even know. They called our house and said they were going to go ahead and send her to Fargo.
We were on our way, and I was going to see her for the first time since that 3 seconds in the OR and that few minutes in the hospital room before they transfered her the first time to Grandforks. I was a ball of nerves...excited, scared, sad, angry, happy, confused, curious,...
When I saw her ... this is the part were any normal person would say 'nothing could have prepared me for seeing my baby in that state or condition' but..for some reason when I saw her I was relieved to see she was getting ALL the help she could get, and from such wonderful people and staff. She was #1 priority there in the NICU, and had 24/7 watch. I knew she was in good care, and I knew that God had her in His hands, and again even standing next to her holding her finger I could do nothing to save her life but trust in the Lord, Pray and know that before I even knew she was going to exist, God already knew her fate. He knew what was going to happen, and I had peace knowing that. We are glad to have her home today and in our arms, but we would have been just as accepting knowing she was with her Creator, and that she had served her given purpose here on Earth as God had intended her to do. We are glad He let us have her longer. :)
Everything else happend as it did, and it was a roller coaster of news and info between the Doctors, Nurses, Nurse Pracs, and us, but zack and I made the experiance differnt then the typical person might think. We had fun! We enjoyed eachothers company, we just had fun together. We needed it as strange as it sounds, God had a bigger plan then Joslyn being sick, it was good for Zack and I. It was good for us as parents to Kylyn, and to Joslyn. We made it out alive, but not just that, we made it out laughing, happy, thankful, and ready for whatever happend next. God is soo good.
Today Joslyn is healthy and happy here at home with her family. She has 3 great grandpas, 3 great grandmas, 2 grandpas, 2 grandmas, 3 aunts, 2 uncles, 1 big sister, and a mommy and a daddy who all love her very very much.
Joslyns 1st Photoshoot With Mommy
Well she did fairly well, but at the beginning refused to stay in any position I wanted hah. I got a few cute ones with her bear, but that was when she not cooperating. They turned out good. I love the bear and the flower if you didnt notice. The flower actually was a headband gifted to Joslyns older sister Kylyn from her uncle and aunite Nathan and Janna. It made for a good prop while she is still small. The bear her daddy and I found in Fargo. The most expensive teddy bear we will ever purchase! lol We bought if for Joslyn as a going home gift from the hospital to remember the experiances there by. We found it in the hospitals gift shop, and purchased it when we heard how well she was doing and that we could take her home in a few days! We brought it too her and it sat on a perfect little shelf in her station until we could bring her home!
I hope anyway to keep the bear in good condition so as she gets older I can put it in a hope box, and when she is older we can give it to her when she has kids. Its a good reminder as well of how good,and great our God is. He took care of our little Joslyn and saw her through serious health issues SO early in her life. Because of HIM we have a beautiful healthy baby girl at home with her mommy, daddy and big sister. Right where we wanted her.
First Bath in The Tub
Joslyns First bath at home in the bathtub. She did really well once we poured some nice warm water on her.
She is such a good baby!
4wks old.
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Leaving the Hosptial
Holding her right before we packed up her things, got her situated in her car seat, and were discharged.
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Snug as a bug in the car seat. Safe and sound for the journy home.
Daddy and Joslyn on our room in night at the hospital.
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HOME!!
Joslyn was unable to e discharged Monday due to no weight gain, and a cough that concerned the doctors a bit, but after being evaluated Monday evening the cough seemed to be less and less concerning. Just seemed to be getting too excited for food when being fed and wouldn't stop to take a few breaths. We worked with it, and we have seemed to correct it OK. It was now just an issue of her weight. In a very short amount of time she was loosing alot of weight. She was being fed on demand 60-70mls of breastmilk via bottle, and still continued to drop until Tuesday...she gained 2gms, and with that we were sent home. She did wonderful in her carseat on the way home, and slept of course the entire way. We stopped in Grandforks to wake her up, feed her, and eat ourselves. We arrived home close to 4pm.
Joslyn was welcomed by her auntie Noelle, and sister Kylyn as we walked in the door, and later by her other auntie Brooke. They all love her of course. Kylyn is especially excited over her. A little jealous and having a hard time not being the center of every ones attention 24/7 anymore, but thats something we will deal with day by day Im sure. Jealous or not, shes happy to finally see her baby sister. She wanted to hold her right away, and did wonderful. Kylyn is my little helper. :) -- right along with her live in auntie Brooke. Later Tuesday night my mom, and sister Noelle brought us over super, and my mom met her for the very first time. Even later that night my mom and dad brought over a few groceries, and my dad got to meet Joslyn for the first time. Then we said our good byes and good nights.
Joslyn is a very good baby at night. Just like her sister Kylyn. I HAVE to wake her up though every 3-4hours to feed her because of her weight issues, ut as soon as we are clear of that - her weight is being checked 2x a wk for 2wks - we're sleeping till she decides. Some parents really are strict on feedings, waking them up even if they would sleep a bit longer before waking up on their own to be fed...I am not that way. So shes a good sleeper and I love it. Shes also an awesome eater, sometimes a stubborn burper, but all around and amazing baby girl, whom I adore.
Today is our first full day home. Shes done wonderful. We cant wait to see how her weight check is tomorrow, and hope to only hear good news on her health checks from here on out!
Thank you to all those who have remembered our family especially our little Joslyn in your prayers. She was -> this <- close to a heart/lung bi pass surgery... but turned the corner just in time. She is now a happy healthy baby girl at home with her auntie, sister, mommy, and daddy. God is so good. Thank you to all his servants!
Excited beyond belief
Her PICC line is out, and she passed her carseat tolerence test. Tomorrow she will retake her hearing test, and her carseat test. Tomorrow the grandparents are coming to visit, and someone will take Kylyn back to Karlstad. Tomorrow night Zack and I will be spending the night at the hosptial in one of the rooms there reserved for 'rooming in' parents, and will have Joslyn for the first time overnight with us. Monday she will have her last dose of with drawl easer meds, and will hopefully be sent home!!
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They are still planning on taking her PICC line out as of today, and they cut her medication in half as well...I cant think of the right name for it, but its purpose is to ease the withdrawal symptoms from the Fentanyl, which she has shown no set backs with. Her last dose is for Monday.
Today she is taking her car seat tolerance test. She has to sit in her car seat for 2hrs straight, while they monitor her oxygen intake. She can’t drop below a 90% the entire time. If she falls below that then we will discuss going home Monday, or Tuesday and how long she can handle being in a sitting position before her level of oxygen is effected. If she does good and passes the tolerance test and has no set backs with her ‘withdrawal easer’ medication she will be coming home maybe Monday or Tuesday!!! The doctor is shooting for Monday. Sunday night we get to sleep at the hospital and ‘room in’ with her… we are very excited.
It is hard to believe she was in serious critical condition, and was heading in the direction health wise of being sent to the cities for a heart lung bypass only a week ago from today. Go has blown away the nurses and Doctors with Joslyn’s progress. The doctor can’t stop saying how good Joslyn is making him look. God has been so good to us! Thank you for everyone who has been supporting and lifting up our family in prayer. May God bless you!
We have lots of good news
It’s been lots of fun having Kylyn with us while we are down here. She is a handful, but we love it. We really wish we could introduce Kylyn to her sister now, but it will have to wait until Joslyn is discharged, and ready to go home for good! Kylyns handling it well and we hope to have her meet with a counselor that can explain at a 2.5yr old level about her baby sister. It’s a sibling’s class where they use dolls, pictures, games etc…to explain what being a big sibling is like, about babies, and will explain in a toddler way why Joslyn is sick, and why Kylyn can’t see her yet.
We are excited for tomorrow, so we get to hold her more, and maybe possibly breastfeed for the first time. It is expected to be hard to start off with since she went from a feeding tube, to bottles, and has yet to be fed by me exclusively, which was what we had hoped to do before she was born. Hopefully, Joslyn and I will get the hang of it quickly, and we can go home maybe sometime mid to end of next week!
Sunday Zack’s folks are coming to visit, and meet Joslyn for the first time, my parents were planning on coming, but we might be heading home Sunday evening ourselves for a day or two depending on when they think Joslyn will be sent home, in which case they may just wait to meet her till we bring her home.
I am just bubbling with joy over getting to hold her this evening. She is so small. Smaller then Kylyn was. I came in just as the station nurse was finishing up a 1oz bottle with her. I got to burp her, and then I just cuddled with her. I hummed and she opened her eyes just a crack to check out where the noise was coming from…smiled a few times from gas. It was a wonderful way to spend 30min. Then Zack went in, and held her while Kylyn and I watched funniest home videos, I gave her a back/neck massage, and ate granola bars together. It was an awesome evening. Now Daddy and Kylyn are pooped out around me sleeping soundly.
Excited for what the Lord has for us tomorrow.
Also please pray for Joslyn as she took her hearing test today and failed in her right ear. Hearing loss is a common side effect to the hypertension. We will find out tomorrow maybe more whether this is perminant, or not. She will take another hearing test as well to double check, not sure when that will be taking place though. Read more...
Back to Fargo Tomorrow
>> Friday, August 13, 2010
Tomorrow morning we head back to Fargo. Zack got his car looked at but we decided not to get it fixed. The issue is the cars security system . . . after the car is shut off; it will not turn over and start for 10minutes. To get it fixed it will cost anywhere from $400 and up.
The issue could just be the key being slightly worn, so we are using the spare key, and so far so good. Lets hope that’s what it is, so we don’t have any trouble once we leave.
We called the NICU tonight and got a update on Joslyn. She is still continuing to do well. The doctor we really like is going to be there all weekend so we are happy. At 7pm he called to let us know she was getting her umbilical line out, and was upped on her feedings to 17ml of breast milk every 3 hours. She is handling them well, so maybe even tomorrow we can try for the first time breastfeeding! I am very excited because this means I will possibly be holding my daughter for the first time in our lives. She was a week old Thursday, so it’s kind of a big deal! She was 23 on oxygen earlier, but then bumped back up to 29 or so…as of tonight at 12am she was back down to 24. She is not on CPAP anymore, but on something else…I can’t think of what its called, nasal something…either way its better then CPAP, so it’s still good news.
The doctor said she will be in a open crib hopefully by the end of next week, and once we get her feedings down and she is gaining adequate weight we can take her home!! We are guessing we will be home with our baby girl sometime between the 20th and the 31st.
We are so excited, but the time she will be there is making things difficult especially in the area of finances. Zack needs to work, and I need to be in Fargo, we have Kylyn, which we would like to have with us as much as possible. We found out today Zack’s employer does not offer paternity leave, so he has to work things out with his manager. We are hoping this wont become an issue and Zack can get the time off we need. We are hoping to be home again maybe even as soon as Sunday so he can work a couple days putting in 12hr shifts. During this time they will have to bottle feed Joslyn using my stored milk. It’s going to be rough, but I think we can make things work. We know the Lord will provide for us, and has a plan in everything. We are trying to just stay open minded, and allow for some flexibility.
We are at such a deep peace with how things are going. Zack and I have come to understand that worry does no good. It wont make us feel better, it wont make Joslyn better, it wont make things go the way we hope they would…Worry is in fact something we as Christians are not supposed to do. Zack and I have given the situation and everything that comes with it to the Lord, knowing and taking peace that before we were even aware Joslyn existed, the Lord knew all about her, about her life, her future. We know He is in control, and in everything that happens we can only give Him praise.
Thank you for all your prayers! It means so much to Zack and I to have such a army of prayer warriors standing with us. We thank you all from the bottom of our hearts for remembering our family in your thoughts and prayers.
Prayer
This morning before Zack went to work he called the NICU for a quick update. She is off the ventilator, and unto CPAP. Last we heard she was already down to 23, 21 being room air, so that’s really good news! As far as I know she is still getting 10ml of breast milk every 3hrs, and from what I understand will have a chance to start with feedings myself very shortly!!
That’s about all I know as far as an update at this point, but will probably know more tonight. She is doing well! Praise the Lord.
We do have some things to be prayed over though!
Please pray as we are trying to plan and decide how to play out this weekend, and coming week. Zack’s paid vacation is up, and we still have possibly a week or more with our daughter, Joslyn, in Fargo. This situation makes things hard, seeing has he needs to work since bills don’t pay themselves, but desires so badly to be in Fargo with Joslyn. Also since I am breast feeding I need to be there, but have no idea how to navigate Fargo/Moorhead. Besides the fact, Zack and I decided ahead of time that we would stick together as much as possible, instead of splitting up. He is going to try taking paternity leave for the remainder of Joslyn’s time in Fargo, and go back home one more time and put in two 12hr shifts. Still even so things will get financially stressful. So please pray for the Lords providence!
Kylyn is another issue. We want her to be with us as much as possible, but she is not allowed in the NICU since she is under the age of 2 meaning only one of us can go in at a time to see Joslyn, while the other hangs back with Kylyn. We are bringing her back to Fargo with us Friday and she will be coming home Sunday either with my parents or, if Zack decides to work Monday and Tuesday, with us unless that is…we change our minds and want her to stay longer. Ha-ha.
Another problem we have run into is Zack’s car is acting up, which has in turn made things quite difficult. He is getting it looked at today, and we are hoping it isn’t a pricey fix as we only have one working vehicle at the moment, and money is already a issue with Zack taking work off to be down in Fargo this coming week.
We have a peace about it all and know our Lord will provide, so we aren’t worrying ourselves sick over it, but please pray for us as we need to decide when it works best for Zack to work, how it will work with Kylyn, and of course the car.
Thank you!
CaringBridge
>> Thursday, August 12, 2010
Created a website specifically designed for updating family and friends on Joslyns health, and our family.
http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/zackandchelsiehanson/journal
Update On Joslyn 12/10
We made it home safe and sound, but not without car issues! Zack’s car has possibly something wrong with a sensor. When we turn it off we can’t turn it on until it decides. Lovely. Anyway, we made it home, and are hoping to get it fixed before we head back Friday.
It’s so nice to be home finally. I only wish Joslyn could have come back with us. This has been the longest time away from Kylyn since she was born, so wow, has this been hard for me. I’m VERY glad to be home with her, and it’s going to be hard sending her home Sunday. I am happy though to have a full day with her here at home and a few days with her down in Fargo.
Zack and I can’t bring her into the NICU so we will be taking turns going to see Joslyn, and entertaining Kylyn. The hospital also offers a free sibling class where a counselor type person will spend some time with her playing and uses dolls, pictures, examples etc to explain to Kylyn what’s going on with her sister at 2yr old level. It should help her understand why she can’t see Joslyn right away. Hopefully it will go well, and that the trip will be helpful to her, and Zack and I. We are really excited!
Joslyn is doing well. She is off the Dopamine completely now. She is now getting some caffeine to stimulate her a bit, earlier today she was still on the vent, but was breathing over it a little. They hoped to wake her up more with the caffeine and lack of sedatives to see if she could breathe without a ventilator and with the use of CPAP.
As of now she is off the vent, the breathing tube is OUT and she is officially on CPAP. They attempted to excavate her at 7pm and she didn’t take well to it, so they left the tube in, but had it out by 10:30pm. They have upped her feedings through the feeding tube to 10ml every 3 hours, and she is taking them well. She is looking more and more comfortable in the isolate.
We are calling the station for updates regularly, as they are calling us. We cant wait to go back, and see her again.
Update on Joslyn 10/10
What to start with. Joslyn is doing REALLY good. She has been completely weaned off of 1 of her 2 blood pressure meds, and down to 3 on the other. Yesterday she was at 18 and 11 on the two meds, and today she’s on 3 and off! Yeah!
She was on 10 Nitric oxide, and tonight she is on 2.4 which is literally almost off. They are hoping to have her off maybe by tonight. If her blood gases come back good, she’ll be off by 12am tonight.
They are weaning her off of her Fentanyl (which is 100x stronger then morphine) as well, and hopefully by Thursday she will be off it completely! It’s an addictive drug, so they can not just turn it off, they have to wean her down.
She is off the BIG ventilator and on to a conventional one. The one she was on before was providing her with 600 breaths per minute; this one is providing her with 40. Because she is still on the Fentanyl and Morphine to keep her from moving around too much and on the lines, and tubes around her, she is allowing the machine to breathe for her. Once she is off the Fentanyl she should begin to breathe over the vent, which will strengthen her lungs.
The doctor today gave us the first slight time line given so far. He said after she’s weaned off of her meds and the nitric oxide, he thinks about a week for respiratory recovery, and then anywhere from a few days to another week to get feedings down etc. That being said, we could have out baby girl home in 2.5wks or less!
She is so beautiful, and such a fighter. She has, so the nurses and doctors say, turned the corner. The only issue, and concern now is her right upper lobe in her right lung. She has some haziness still, which means the air sacs in that area are collapsed. They think its just some mucus that’s still sitting there, so they have her on her left side with her right side up higher hoping that it will help inflate it, and loosen the mucus up. They also have a small machine that place on her right side that vibrates ever so lightly hoping again to loosen up the mucus so it can be suctioned out.
She is being given 5ml of breast milk every 6 hours, and so far so good.
Now I can’t remember when they said, but very soon she should be in a open isolate, and we can touch her, and if all is still well, maybe even hold her. *crossing fingers* maybe.
I think that’s all I can think of to update you all on. She is doing really well, and we are so proud of her.
Tomorrow, (wed) Zack and I are making our way home without our precious baby Joslyn, but we know she is in really good hands at this time, and we know she is doing better, so that makes us feel better about leaving her. We will be going home Wednesday evening, and coming back here Friday with our 2yr old. Zack is going to put in a 12hr shift at work Thursday, I have a doctor’s appointment Friday morning, and we are on our way with one beautiful princess (Kylyn) to go see our other (Joslyn)!!
We are hoping that when we return on Friday that Joslyn will be in her open isolate, and her station will look much more inviting.
Kylyn will be staying with us till Sunday, which is when we have arranged for, if Joslyn is still doing well, our families to come see their new grand daughter for the first time. Kylyn will then get a ride home to sleep back in her own bed.
We are planning on coming home 2 to 3 more times until we can finally put a precious little something in her new car seat (complements of Wayne and Dena, her grand parents) and come home!! It will be so nice for Kylyn to meet her baby sister for the first time. She will not be able to meet her while she is with us in Fargo because of her age. They do not allow siblings under age 3 into the NICU.
Well that’s all I can think of as far as goals, updates, plans, etc. Thank you all so much for your thoughts and prayers! Keep us lifted up in prayer, as it is pushing us through it all. God has been so good to us today. We had an issue with Zack’s car but I decided to pray for the car as crazy as it might sound, and next time the key was turned the car was started and we were back on the road to go see Joslyn. God is here with us, and helping us, and I am over joyed at all the wonderful comments of encouragement left in the guestbook. We love hearing from you, and love seeing all the support we have back home. May God bless you all as you have blessed us.
Zack and Chelsie
Possibly Some Improvement!
Yesterday Joslyn was considered in serious critical condition, but today is in serious but stable condition. She has had some more chest x-rays and her lungs were still hazy which means there was fluid of some sort in her lungs still. We are still unsure if she has an infection; we are waiting on results of tests for it, but won’t have results for a little while yet. There is no proof of infection, but there are signs she could have one, such as as an elevated heart beat. Because of this and a few other signs they are treating her as if she has one, until they get the results back.
At 6pm we were with her while she had her 3rd out of 4 x-rays for the day. Her chest x-ray came back MUCH clearer then the other 2 earlier today. (So good to see and hear) We are hoping and praying she stays stable, and makes a turn around tonight!
Right now Joslyn is doing well. She is still on a level of 63 Oxygen support, and needs to get to a level of 21 to be considered on room air. She is off her paralysis medication today, which is good, but to control pain, and her lack of willingness to let the machines work for her she is still sedated. It is hard to see her in this state but we know it’s for the best. She is a fighter and is fighting the machines that are trying to help her, which is only wearing her out, making it hard for her lungs to heal, and develop how they need to.
Joslyn is on Antibiotics to fight off any infections that might be present in her tiny body, Morphine and Fentanyl for pain control, Steroids for her lungs, Dopamine for her blood pressure, Lorazepam and Vecuronium are being used as a sedative to help her relax her muscles and rest up letting the machines work more effectively, Nitric Oxide to help open the sacks in her lungs so she can better absorb oxygen into the blood, which in turn decreases high blood pressure in the lungs, Sufactant to coat the air sacs in her lungs with a fatty substance to keep them from collapsing, She still has a Umbilical Catheter which is being used to draw blood for labs, this method is painless and easy compared to sticking her several times a day for tests, a PICC (Peripherally Inserted Central Catheter) which runs into her hand, up her arm and sits next to her heart, and maybe a few other medications to help her out. Her heart beat is good, her blood pressure is right where they want it to be right now. She is of course at this point unable to retain these results on her own and still needs the support. They dropped her dose of Blood pressure meds today a tiny bit and she kept stable. We are very excited, and praying that this is her turn around point.
The nurse today who was with us, and walking us through things was very helpful in explaining things, and was very reassuring. Gave us some hope that we might get to take this precious baby girl home with us! They need to wean her off of some meds, and take the Umbilical line out before we can hold her, and work on feedings. That could take (depending on her cooperation) anywhere from a few days to a week or more. The Nitric Oxide they need to wean off very slowly since it is addictive, and is not ok to cut cold turkey.
She is doing better today yes, but we still are asking for all the prayers you can bring yourself to give! God has a plan in the situation and we have peace in knowing the Lord has our little Joslyn in his hands, and has had a plan for her life since before we knew she was made. We hold our heads up high, and we know God is in control. Yes Zack and I are human and we hurt for our baby girl, but we have Peace in the Lord which is something felt like no one can describe with words.
Please pray for our family financially as well, this defiantly wasn’t planned! We are looking at our daughter being here for much longer then originally thought, but are willing to work things out between ourselves for Zack and I to stay here with her in Fargo as much and as long as she needs to be till she is well enough to come home with us!
Zack has work to go back to; we have our other beautiful baby girl at home being cared for by her two aunties and occasionally her grandparents. We have a life we want to bring our new baby girl back to! She has a big sister that wants to meet her, a mommy and daddy and family that want to hold her! We are thankful to have an op to meet with a social worker tomorrow in regards to the Ronald McDonald house across the street, and to have gotten an offer from a relative of Zack’s, and a high school friend of mine for her and her husband to open up their home to us if we need. God is so good to us, and is showing us that all we need to do is rely on him to bring us through.
Thank you for all your support and your prayers,
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Earlier Then Expected
8/02/10 I had my last doctors appointment before my c-section date of 8/09/10. Everything looked well.
That evening I began haveing some contractions, which were painless, and inconsistent. I took them as Braxton Hicks contractions, and thought nothing more of them. Tuesday, I continued to have contractions, again painless and inconsistent in time, but were constant throughout the day and night. Wednesday, I began to become a bit worried by some noticeable changes in her movement. I continued with constant, but inconsistently timed contractions ranging anywhere from 20minutes apart to as little as 2. They were completely painless, but every so often where uncomfortable.
Thursday morning I woke up a little after 6, and was instantly concerned about the lack of movement from my baby girl. After eating some food drinking water and walking around, all in hopes of getting her to move, I decided to call Zack. I called him and informed him of my concerns, and asked him to come get me. . . I called L&D and started packing and getting ready. We checked in and got set up on monitors in no time. My doctor left Wednesday and wasnt due back until Sunday, so I was working with the on call doctor Dr. Bass, who was wonderful.
I was 3cm and regularly contracting. I was officially in labor. Soon enough I got my spinal and we were doing the C-section.
Josyln was born at 6:43pm weighing 6lbs 13oz and was 18 1/3 inches long. She scored a 5 on her first APGAR and then 7 and 7 later. She struggled with her breathing. She was looking more like 36wks rather then 38wks and some days. She was slightly premature, and her lungs were slightly under developed.
I went to the recovery room, not knowing all the issues with Joslyn. When I was out and back in my room I learned she was still struggling with her breathing, and soon enough they had called GF. They came in because they had a NICU, where as Their River dose not.
Joslyn left us in Thief River to go get the necessary help she needed from the Neonatal care unit in Grand Forks, while Zack stayed with me in Thief River until I was discharged. We were kept up to date on our baby girls situation by phone calls from the NICU team working with Joslyn in Grand Forks. Friday, Zack went to GF to visit, but due to her being so touch and go they did not allow him to touch her, or speak.
Sometime after 11pm GF called us at the hospital in TR to let us know she went from CPAP to the ventilator. She was still digressing. an oxygen level of 21 is considered room air. She was bumped up to 40.
Saturday I got discharged, and we ran home to unpack, give our daughter Kylyn who is 2 1/2 yrs some attention and love, update our families on the issues at hand, re-pack and get on our way. While at home Dr. Lund called and let us know he thought it would be in Joslyns best interest to move her to Fargo. She needed a ventilator capable of providing her tiny body with 600 breaths per minute. He called back within a half hour and let us know she would be going to Fargo, and for us to just meet her there.
When we got there I had only seen her about less then 10min before hand, and Zack maybe a total of 25-30min. I was slightly taken back by her condition.
She is on nitric oxide/oxygen and is on a ventilator breathing about 500 time a minute for her. She is on a sedative, and morphine to make sure she is comfortable. They gave her a blood transfusion and PIC line tonight. Since she was still trying to fight and work so they also had to give her some medication that has paralyzed her temporarily. This is for the purpose of letting her rest, and let her body recover and let the machines do the work for her.
Please pray for our baby girl. At first it seemed to be a problem easily handled, but has turned into a long journey of issues. We were told she could be home within a few days, but from the sounds of things now it could be a few weeks. This causes some issues with Zack and work, our daughter being away from us...etc. Please be praying for Joslyns quick, easy and beautiful full recovery. We are only allowed to hold her hand, we cannot talk much, hold her, and I cannot breastfeed her. I am pumping but she isnt to the point of being able to even work on feedings.
Joslyn is at the moment on a ventilator getting oxygen and nitric oxide, she has a catheter, a PIC line, a line in her belly button used to take blood samples, etc...She is very sick, and is in so much need of prayer and a healing touch from the Lord.
Please be praying for our little girl.
Baby Shower
>> Saturday, July 24, 2010
It actually went rather well. I was fairly worried no one would show, and although there wernt very many the people we had were all people I love! The desert bar my mom, sisters, and hubby helped put together were amazing. I finally got my rubbarb pie!! YUMM. I almost won the pin game, but Zack got me to say baby in the most obvious way haha and he won...but the grand prize was a pie and ofcourse we shared. :) The fire pit was going, people were conversing, NO rain praise the LORD! haha
My dad told Zack after, Zack informed him it was a really high % for rain during the shower, that if he (Zack) was right with the LORD it would not rain. hahaha we had our fun rubbing it in my dads face haha. Apparently Zack is fairly right with God because it didnt even sprinkle. :)
The gifts were amazing, Im so thankful for my sisters, and their thoughtfulness in gifts. haha As well we all those who gave cards and gifts alike. I am very thankful!
We ended the night back at our house with some friends we never have a chance to hang out with much anymore, had some of zacks prize pie, played a game and watched bits and peices of a movie. Good conversation, filled with awkward speach impedimants due to lack of sleep haha. Good time.
Zack got the floor stained today so while he was stainning I took Kylyn on a walk, and then went over to my moms to help out and let her jump on the trampoline with her naughty aunties. I left her their to play after awhile, came home, showered, and then set the nursery up. SO excited with how it looks!!
After the shower, and after our friends headed for home, Zack and I folded clothes and put our baby girls clothes away sorting through things. It made it so much more real... I'm definatly in a nesting mode thats for sure! haha
BAD MOM /|\ Apology
I Have been running on a total of about 2-4, sometimes 5 hours of sleep every night and day. I am tired...This baby is DEFIANTLY bigger then Kylyn was, and loves to scratch either with her head or some wicked long fingernails my uterus. Its painful enough for me to hold my breath, stop moving, walking, or doing whatever it is I was doing at the time. She is MOST active at night, and peaceful and quiet all day long. Well I have a toddler thats MOST active during the day and sleeping at night...where is there any room for sleep? I was wondering the same thing.
I have permanent damage to my back and hips from my pregnancy with Kylyn, and feel I have only doubled or tripped my problems. I hate the idea of going to a chiropractor because everyone says you will have to continue going if you go once...Well I dont wanna be going forever...I just want them to tell me whats wrong with my back, and fix it. I wish wish wish I could go NOW and so I could possibly have a medical reason to have my cs the 2nd instead of the 9th, but thats a long shot in the dark, and I know it wont happen. I am miserable...absolutely miserable...I feel like an awful mother right now to my daughter because I CANT hardly move some days...Laying down means excruciating pain in my hips, lower back, mid back, ribs, shoulders, and knees. Sitting means excruciating pain in my hips, lower back, mid back and neck. If I stand after sitting for any longer period of time I walk around hunched over like a old woman because my ligaments get soo tight. The tendons in my groin make it nearly impossible to walk some days. My hips pop out of place on random...yet i have a wonderful most amazing daughter I need to care for being a sahm. i need to get up and feed her, and play with her and give her my undivided attention. i need to read her books, and sing her songs, to hug her, chase her, and give her some mommy loving. . . All these things have become painful and I feel horrible about it. Because I'm so tired, and stressed I have the shortest patience ever as of late.I'm working on it, and trying to just take things slow, and laugh the things that go wrong, off.
I just want to have this baby and trade my nearly complete sleepless nights with nights with a toddler and infant where I can go to bed, sleep so much more comfortably, and wake up every 2-4hrs to breastfeed. I will be getting way more sleep then now. Dont get me wrong I love pregnant, but I think it should be medically necessary that as soon as my baby is fully term, and has been okeyd to come out into this world, that she DOES! Waiting any longer is nonsense. I wanna be a good mom again, I wanna be able to cuddle with my little girl(s) I want to sleep, I want to eat, and poop!! hah
ANYWAYS...Lately I have been really easily hurt, easily upset, easily disturbed, easily offended...I apologize If i have said anything, or done anything that has hurt anyone. I have only spoke my thoughts, my mind...this is my blog, more like my open book diary. As far as my readers go...i only know of 2 followers, so I assume not many read this, and I'm mostly talking to myself, and getting my thoughts out of my head and onto my blog. It relieves stress like no bodys business! haha
I am sorry, and I hope you dont,or didnt take offense. What I write is what I observe as truth, if its not true than I observed it differently then what it really is. I love my family dearly, and would never change anything about them...well. haha jk. I have some issues with some of them..., and their lifestyles and what I think is appropriate for age, and what is not. These are my opinions. I can have them. Especially if these people are potentially going to influence my girls. I am their mom, and love them dearly. If I think something is unhealthy for them I will remove them from it.
I will not tell anyone i think they need to change this or that, but I DO think and WILL say that there is a time and a place for everything and every age...no one is perfect no one has a very good chance of ever being perfect either...But we should be responsible for our actions. I love you all, and I am not upset or mad, and I hope none of you are either. There is no reason to be.
Got baby bedding today!
>> Monday, July 19, 2010
Its SO adorable, ... http://www.walmart.com/ip/Lil-Kids-L-is-for-Ladybug-4-Piece-Crib-Bedding-Set-Bundle/14691205
its cute online, but even cuter in person...it just made our baby all the more real!!
Hard time with it all--another rant
My first experience being pregnant wasn't a good one. I got pregnant at 17 by my best friend of 3-4years, and boyfriend of less then 1yr. being a pastors daughter, and a graduate from a Christian school, there was very little who supported the fact that we didnt want to break up, that we didnt want to give our daughter up for adoption, and regardless of how slim the chances were, we wanted to get our lives straight and make things between us work. I knew before we even started dating that one day I would like to be married to my best friend, but what did I know. I was 17, and barely a graduate. Things at home got bad, and I made the decision to get a job, and that job happened to be in Roseau MN which was too far to drive 5days a week every morning. I worked things out with Zack's aunt and uncle for me to live with them, and it worked out fine. I worked up until my doctor recommended moving my way closer to the hospital since I was fairly far away staying at the Laurins. I stayed back and forth between the Laurins and Zack's parents depending on how I was feeling.
Everyone knew I was pregnant, and anytime I came home to visit my mom dad, and siblings a whole new wave of rumors rushed about the town. It made coming home sooo extremely bitter sweet. i felt as though Every thing I had ever done wrong was suddenly laid out for the town to see...No it wasn't everything, but it was a pretty big thing! I was ashamed and embarrassed, and I wanted to turn my life around, but so called Christians made me almost want to reconsider. They happened to be the main ones throwing rumors round and about that most of the time weren't even CLOSE to the truth. Judging me at every chance they could get...If I ever went out I always felt as if I was walking down main street naked or something...glares, and stares, and whispering...I hated it so much. It was awful, and although I knew what I had done to get me in that situation was wrong, I felt that they needed to put their eyeballs back in their sockets, look in the mirror, and start wrestling the beam out of their own eye before examining publicly the speck in mine.
Do to the negativity surrounding my pregnancy and its circumstances I personally had a really hard time staying positive, and struggled badly with depression, but being pregnant, although recommended by my doctor, declined to take my medication. It was difficult to see this pregnancy as any thing then what everyone made me feel it was. I had a hard time enjoying my pregnancy, or anything that had to do with it. I didnt want anyone to give any attention to the fact that I was pregnant, but that was impossible.
Valentines day I went into labor just before midnight...I stayed at Zacks parents, and sure enough at 2am I woke up feeling crampy. It wasn't THAT bad so I went back to sleep...again at around 4-4:30am I woke up, and this time I knew I was in labor. I called my mom, took a shower, drank some water, woke Zack up...and was checked into the hospital in TRF by 7am.
As soon as I was in a room and hooked up, my doctor came in and checked me and sure enough I was 7cm dilated and 100% effaced. She was amazed and said we could go without an epi if we wanted because I was tolerating contractions so well...which I was. (i seriously had worse gas pains while pregnant with Kylyn then contractions) We expected to have a baby girl within a few hours. There was alot of drama over who would be allowed in the room, and who wouldn't. When Kylyn started to crown but was so badly molded, the choice to go ahead and just do a cs came, and with that the argument of whether my mom should be in the OR with me or if the daddy of my baby and my fiance' would sit at my side.
I chose Zack, and in doing so my dad chose to walk out, and not see the baby or me until after I was discharged from the hospital. Not the best thing to happen and be on your mind as your about to have a major abdominal surgery. (not only was it a major surgery it was the first time I had ever been admitted into the hospital...um scary!) I'm glad with the choice I made, although I wish my daddy hadnt left me because he didnt get his way....and I think, what if something happened to me in the OR, and he just left? ---
Visitors came and went, and we felt supported by a few.
My church threw me a 'Gods way baby shower', but it was awkward because a friend of mine had just miscarried her baby and was there and seemed to make the entire thing about her, and yeah it was just weird, and i felt awkward. It was nice, but I still felt, regardless, judged. My MIL couldn't be there ( maybe she could have but because Zack and I were not married it was a bit inappropriate I guess. )
Kylyns first year was entirely hard for Zack and I. . . She was the BEST thing that could have happened to us. She defiantly woke us up. Yes,we didn't suddenly walk the straight and narrow, and made mistakes along the way, but with support, prayer, and REAL friends who weren't out to just milk us for information to then pass on to the next person, we got back on track. Kylyn turned 1yrs old Feb 15th, and Zack and I said "I do" March 27th. My daddy walked me down the isle, gave me away, and performed the ceremony. It was extremely special to me. I didnt cry one bit during the wedding until we got ready to walk down the isle, and Coldplays 'life in technicolor II' began to play...I lost it. At that moment everything over the last year hit me...and it was over. I was now married to my best friend, I had my baby girl, and we were finally the family we should be. The relief was amazing, and I couldnt have wanted it more.
THIS TIME around...we got pregnant inside of marriage, and I hoped it would be wonderful. I hoped people would be excited for us, that people would congratulate us and not have that look in their eye like "what were you thinking...your so young why would you do it again on purpose?" ... we told our parents and both sides reacted...OK. not good, or bad. mostly just concerned about finances. Being money minded isnt always a bad thing, but it is when you hear your having a grandchild and all you can think of is our money situation.... kinda puts a damper on the announcement.
Things have been good, but not great. It seems everyone has their opinion of Zack and I's situation...too young, not financially secure, ... etc. The worst of it is they talk to us about it out of concern and respect but then talk to others about for ..... um what reason again?? This causes so much trouble because then we only have added people placing their opinions and views of us on our shoulders or worse whispering it in their neighbors ears...just starting moooreeee rumors, and stories.
My parents stress money all the time. If I ever talk to my mom about how im feeling if she asks etc she always compares it to herself and almsot tries to make it into a competition. Ilove my mom, but this hurts. I dont let her know how im feeling for her to inform me she mde it through and had 3 kids within a little over 3yr or whatever...She can win, i'm not in it for competition. We got pregnant only a few months before we planned on TRYING to get pregnant....(oops) and it was in the right situation (us being married) and still....ugh
Zacks parents were SO involved with my pregnancy with Kylyn, probably in part that I lived there off and on, before and right after Kylyn was born. But this time we have nothing to do with each other sadly, we see them every so often, but not much. Everyone is always busy, and has a schedual that cant be changed. My FIL asks how I'm doing, and makes me feel he is concerned and wants to be involved in this pregnancy, but I dont always feel the same from my MIL. She always seems sooo focused on Kylyn, she seems to not even notice,im pregnant. I don't know maybe I'm just seeing things differently. I just wish my MIL would be more involved, like she was last time. It makes me worried its going to be a situation of favoritism between Kylyn and our new baby girl.
Anyway...I'm just feeling that even though Zack and I are married, we are having our second baby girl in 22days maybe less...and we are trying disparately to do things right this time...people are still acting not excited, very uninvolved...etc. Oh well I guess...
This rant definatly has to do with lack of sleep seeing as its 5am, and hormones...gonna go to bed.
Baby Shower Rant...
My baby shower is this weekend and I cant even say I'm excited. At this point I almost would rather cancel it all together. Most people (where I live) dont have baby showers for their 2nd, 3rd, 4th...etc children, but rather only their first. I wouldnt normally consider doing a before baby shower, ... maybe doing a meet the baby party after she was here, but we need things before she gets here! Ha-ha. Not to mention the idea of blessing only the 1st born babies, and celebrating their life, and life to come is horrible. EVERY baby I ever have will be just as much a blessing as my first born.
Well, we have had a rather busy life lately, and not everything has gone well. I dont want to complain too much about money, but it can at times be an issue. I'll explain. We moved from our townhome into my parents...then we couldnt get into our house bc paper work hadn't gone through, when we finally got in right off the bat the sump pump went. yay. We had to pay all our bills right off the bat, and get things at the house set up. (internet, tv, etc...) All of which costs money, so thats alot of money needed to be spent all at once.
On top of that we found out we were having a little girl, and were excited because we had saved all of Kylyns clothes up until her lates size! THEN we found out my great aunt and uncle were cleaning out some stuff (where we stored stuff) and THREW out all of Kylyns baby clothes from Newborn through 12months!! Socks, shoes, onsies, outfits ,burp rags, everything!! WELL over $200 worth of baby stuff thrown away. Some of it having tags still attatched. Yes, I cried. We, therefore, have nothing for our new baby girl, until after shes 12months. We have bought some outfits, hit up some garage sales, we got her bedding, a dble stroller, new breastfeeding pump, ect...but are still lacking in a few things.
We are doing cloth diapers this time which I'm excited for, BUT as much money as it saves long run, ... you have to buy bulk at once. So to get started costing us close to $200 or more... it just gets to be stressful. I know a baby shower would help relieve some stress as to some of the basic necessities for our daughter. This is largely a reason we would like a baby shower BEFORE the baby is here rather then have a meet the baby party afterwords.
I'm not excited about the shower (even though we sort of need it) though for a few reasons. One being, NO one is comming. No one was in Church this last Sunday when it was announced so no one will get the info. I created an event since my mom didnt want to, and my sister was going on a youth retreat, on Facebook, and out of all the people I invited 5 people are comming. FIVE! Of those 5 people attending, 1 of them is a host, 2 are actual guests, and the other 2 consist of my husband and I. Slightly depressing.
All the planning and info is being sent out last minute because my mom has been so busy with the death of my grandfather, and going back and forth helping out my grandma. Sunday my dad was gone (hes the pastor), so Van announced it, but I dont even know what he said, or what info he had.
My mother inlaw cant comming which hurts because she was fairly involved in my pregnancy with my oldest daughter, Kylyn, but seems non existant with this pregnancy. Part of which is that our scheduals just dont match up for us to ever get together. When we do see my inlaws I feel, in my opinion, her focus is on Kylyn the majority of the time. Maybe I'm just over thinking things, but it really does hurt, and at times bothers me greatly.
My Mom Dad and Brooke (my youngest sister) are suposed to be throwing it, but everyone has been running like crazy people, and have been almost too busy to make any of the arrangements.
I feel dumb. I wanted BBQ's and salad, and a simple desert...she didnt want to do that. She thought a salad bar...then proceeded to list off 4-5 salads only 1 of them being a salad I would even eat. I understand your feeding others as well as me, but isnt it suposed to be for me and my growing baby?? Maybe I'm wrong. So we scratched that completely and went with a desert bar, which we are trying to plan, but NO one is letting anyone know if they plan on showing up. We have NO clue of the amount of food to get. :(
I had a few hilarious game ideas... (not the cheesey boring dainty ladies baby shower games...) The fun humorous games people WANT to play. I'm not a big game player myself, but haha these are fun, and I cant wait. (I might have to if we dont have enough people) I had this ideal shower planned in my head, and my mom was in full compliance, but suddenly not so much.
I didnt want a ladies shower, I wanted a couples shower that resembled more of a friends and family get together where we could all just joke, and enjoy eachothers humor and company....get to know one another, eat some good food, play some awesome games, and then joke about it all at the end. .... I'm scared theres only going to be a few people and its going to be all women and no one is gonna wanna play games, and its gonna just be awkward and boring, and another 'traditional' baby shower. I know I shouldnt complain and should have a thankful heart. Maybe its just the lack of sleep, and the crazy hormones. I dont know.
36wks
Weeeeellll, two labor and delivery hospital visits, a pelvic rest sentance, preterm labor, and a bed rest sentance later, I finally made it to 36wks as of July 18th 2010! It was kinda scary there for awhile, but we got things under control, and although I have numorous Braxton Hicks contractions in an hour nearly every hour of every day...My cervix hasnt dialated anymore...that I know of (i'll find out in 13hrs and 15minutes), and nothing else seems to be going wrong. I have passed my last two NST's (Non Stress Test) and baby is growing accordingly. YAY!
I have alot of trouble staying hydrated it seems, so I drink water non stop it seems, which means I'm running to the bathroom non stop as well! When BH contractions get bad I stop and lay down, and drink more water until they subside, then go back to what I was doing. It isnt fun, thats for sure. Kylyn is demanding of my attention, and makes it hard to be on bedrest!
Sleep no more....33 weeks 3 days.
>> Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Well, I cant sleep. I have...hmmm let me count. 7 pillows, and stole one of Kylyns 2 pillows and no matter what I cant get comfy. My ribs hurt. like the line around where the bottom of my sports bra lands. It doesnt hurt in my back or stomach, just on my sides...like the 2 ribs bellow my boobs on both sides. Mostly on the right side though. Ugh drives me nuts. I can sleep usually around 2:30-4am and then sleep as long as Kylyn allows. Lately shes been waking up at 5am with Zack when he gets up to get ready for work at 6am. She comes and lays in bed with me, and I turn on the tv and turn it to this super cute channel I cant remember the name of, and she watches and laughs, and eventually I fall asleep and somewhere after then so does she.. We wake up again between 8-10am. Then we just wait for daddy to come home at 3-4-5pm So so fun.
Today after Zack got off of work at 12pm he drove all the way home, picked Kylyn and I up, and drive all way back to Theif River...exactly a block not even from where he works, all for me to get my second steriod shot in my butt. OUCH this one was WAY worse then the first on Monday. After that was all over we went to see the potencial pet. A Norfolk Terrior. This famiyl found him and has taken him to the vet, posted up photos, posters, walked around, stopped at neighbors within almost a miles radious asking in person about the dog....maybe people had seen it around the area for the last 2-3 weeks thinking it was a fox. When they found him they thought he was a fox as well. They have had him for over a month and a half in their home. They started asking around for anyone who wanted him, and we did some reasearch and decided .. well sure why not.
He is a pure bread, but has some---for some reason--undesireable white markings in his coat. He is about 1yrs old or less. Hes great with kids, is trained, house trianed, and just an all around awesome dog. Not to mention he isnt nutered, and is worth around $2,500. Thats a nice free gift to get from complete strangers, who happen to have a daughter that works at hugos, and happen to be dating a guy that works with Zack. . .
After going and getting some of the few things we needed...like TOILET PAPER!!! We headed home, I painted Kylyns stool, and then Zack and I sanded and primed the entire crib except one peice. Tomorrow I'm hoping to finish priming, and can start painting it all. It was all in all a good day. I'm tired though, peeing non stop, and its 2:30am. . . .hmm. You would think I would eventually just pass out from exhaustion!!
I think Ill try sleep some, but we'll see what the night brings!! Goodnight.
33 Weeks 1 day - bedrest for a reason?...or no reason?...hmm
Well, after waking up WAY too early after getting very little sleep, getting in the car without eating a thing, and getting to my regular doctors appointment on time at 8am. I figured the day could only get better from here...That was totally wrong. An appointment in which I was to get a quick internal ultrasound to check cervical length, abdominal ultrasound to check babys position, my weight charted, along with my blood preasure,and then to just have my tummy measured quick...maybe a few minute conversatoin...it should have totalled 45-60min. Instead, everything went according to plan until I got to my doctor appointment. Everything looked wonderful, and she decided just for the fun of it to pop me on the monitor to see if I was having contractions or anything...my cervix was dialated to a 1cm but hasnt changed in 2weeks. I expected it might happen, but new it would be a on and off thing. I'm suposed to be on the machine for 20min. Well I was on for a total of about 6-10min. My doctor came in, and sent me right over to L&D. She said I was contracting every 3min. She put me on bed rest, gave me a painful steriod shot in my right butt cheek, pumped 2000mL of IV fluids in me, took a cathitor urin sample, put me on the monitor at the hospital, and then took some blood test.
I was there an hour with not one contraction, but I peed 4-5times. . . We missed our appointment to see the potencial new pet. My mom was slightly upset because this is the 2nd time I have gone into the clinic leaving Kylyn with her, and ended up being in L&D for hours causing her day to be completely rearranged. Finally after over 2 hours of laying in bed watching TV, peeing every 5-10min, and haveing zero contractions....I asked my nurse if I could go home. She called my doctor who said I could but had to be on bedrest. ... I basically can lay in bed, sleep, lay on my side, watch TV in bed or laying on the cough, go to the bathroom, shower or take a bath, NOT lift anything over 3-5lbs, drive, and walk only when needed. . .
Seriously? I was put on bedrest for no reason. Dumb. Well, I have too much to do, and get done to do nothing. A highschool friend came over and helped Zack and I paint all the doors and door frames, floor boards, and heating registers in our kitchen. I had 2 braxton hicks total. No problem.
I know I am on bedrest, but I KNOW when I'm having labor contractions...real contractions, I know when Im having a braxton hicks contraction, and I know when I'm not having any contractions of any kind...I know when I need to sit down, lay down, eat, pee, or just take a quick breather. IF something was up I would not hesitate to call my doctor. I trust myself, and my body. So since I left the hospital with a sore butt, a bandaid on my arm from my IV, and some hospital slippers, I went to hugos...yes I walked, and I filled a 1gallon jug of water...then carried it. We were in such a rush to get home and get all the things we needed to get done that day, we forgot to buy toilet paper, shampoo & conditionar, baby shampoo for Kylyn and some other items I cant recall. We got home painted, cleaned, and finally at around 11:30pm I made up a nice foot bath. awww it felt so wonderful. that was one exhausting, pointless day, BUT regaurdless I got ALOT done. Nothing happend. :)
30wks pregnant Photos
This is one of my favorites!
My sister Brooke took some photos for us using my camera, so I had some photos throughout pregnancy. I thought it turned out cute.
Bed Time Wars with Kylyn
Well since before the beginning of April 2010 our daughter has been sleeing in the same room as Zack and I. First at our townhome because we packed away her room and moved hr bed into ours, so we could empty out other rooms and just leave our bedroom and the upstairs bathroom in working, living order. Then when we moved out and into my parents we all slept in my old bedroom. We had to have her sleep in our room when we first moved into our house a few weeks ago as well because we didnt have her bed, matress, or her room done. Now that her room is painted and almost completed, bed in place, etc we have been trying to get her back into the habit of sleeping in her own bed. ugh its hard. Zack and I are just so exhausted by bed time we dont have too much patience to sit for hours with her crying until she decides to sleep in her bed.
Last night Zack and I cracked down and succeeded. We just decided to put her to bed, go through our routine, and put her to bed in HER bedroom. We left her door open and her nightlight on, so it wasn't dark in her room in the slightest bit. she came out of her room right away. Zack and I just went to bed and ignored her cries to sleep in our bed. After 20min of throwing herself on the floor wailing, kicking and screaming...she finally just gave up went to her room got in bed and went to sleep. It worked perfectly. We plan to do it that way now every night. You would think that after a few nights of it she would learn that regaurdless of her kicking, screaming, and fit throwing that she is not sleeping in our room anymore.
Lets just hope it goes that way or else its going to be really interesting when we have the baby in the bassinett in our room. I'm sure she'll be waking up crying every few hours to be fed and if kylyn is wanting to sleep in the bed with us, and Zacks getting up at 5am every morning when he works at 6. ...we are going to NEVER AGAIN SLEEP!
Pray this all works out!!
Talk about Bad Timing
So I went to the doctor 6/1610 and let her know that the night before I had some pinkish tinted vaginal mucus (Sorry if thats TMI!!) and have had ALOT of Braxtin Hicks Contractions lately. If you have more then 6 in an hour your supposed to let your doctor know. I was having over 20 easily in a day and its very difficult and, although not necessarily painful, very uncomfortable!
She decided to check my cervix, and sure enough I was dilated to 1cm, and had a very intense contraction right there in the office. She put me on the monitor at the clinic for 20min. When she looked at the results she was slightly concerned because I was so irritable. She did a fFN or fetal fibronecton test, which thank goodness came back negative, and then sent me over to L&D for further monitoring. I was hooked up to 1000mL of IV fluids, and had some lab tests done. 5hours after my original doctor appointment I was finally sent home and put on pelvic rest. Which means no sex, or orgasms.
The nurse who passed on the message to me was rather rude about it all. She came in and explained (with Zack standing right at the side of the bed next to me) that he would be fine going without me, and suggested for fathers day that I give Zack a bottle of lotion, some privacy, and a porn magazine! She then went on saying I didnt need to worry because she knew all about it since she had a husband and kids. all I could think was "Um what? and WHY would you say that.... ???!?!" -- Zack and I just looked at each other and gave a very obvious "thats not funny" chuckle as she laughed her way out the door. UGH! I'm just praying I dont have her as a nurse while I'm in the hospital when I have my c-section!!
So anyway. I now have doctors appointments 2x a week. Mondays and Thursdays, every other appointment I have an ultrasound, and every 2weeks I have a fFN test. My doctor confirmed the pelvic rest thing, and added that I should try lift on my daughter as little as possible along with not lifting anything heavy. When BH contractions start to try just take it easy...sit down put my feet up and rest a few minutes before continuing about my day.
Its not easy when Zack works 8-12hrs a day full time, and we are trying to get ready for the baby, and remodel what we can afford to, along with fixing and repairing all the things that keep breaking along the way...like last night and the sump pump. We are taking it a day at a time...sometimes a hour at a time, or minute by minute...We have defiantly had our days where we are super productive, and our not so productive days.
Keep us in your prayers!
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